Introverted ol’ me finds it really hard to tune out noise. I have a few standard responses to noisy environments.
At first, I wince. The sound is like an assault on my body. It almost hurts and I can’t think. And I can keep wincing, never feeling like I’ve properly righted myself. And then…
1. Shields UP!
When this happens, I can throw up my shields, Star Trek style, to defend myself. Shielding myself protects me from being battered by the sound but it’s exhausting. I also can’t feel much when I’m defending myself. My breathing becomes shallow and I’m in a sort of stasis, waiting for safety to come. Or I might..
2. Check out
Eventually, I might leave the room/environment. I’ll go walking or pacing somewhere else. I’ll go into full on introvert ‘don’t make me party’ mode. And even though I’d like to be present, I can’t be. When I’m like this, I might come across as aloof or bored or indifferent. But sometimes I can..
3. Surf it
If I feel centred in myself. If I’m calm and breathing and feeling connected to the world, I can surf the noise, playfully bouncing off the energy of it.. I can walk through a busy noisy room. City streets don’t usually bother me if I know where I’m going. I can move through the crowds like I would on the dance floor in a 5Rhythms class. When I don’t fight it, it can be enjoyable. But only for short periods of time.
In response to Daily Prompt